Dishonored

Honor... this word has been the drive of many wars, pilgrimages, journeys, fights, and many books. For some it is the soul reason for life. Because in life, you have a chance to gain honor, to keep honor, and to show honor. For the Japanese, honor was held to be so important, that if you dishonored yourself, you dishonored your family, and the only way you could regain it was to kill yourself in ritual suicide.
The question for our generation is, does honor still exist today within our age group. One may look so far as into the military, and say it is still there. But if that person were to look deep into it, they would see that even in our great military, honor is scarce to find, and even scarcer to be created. True, that person will find valor, strength, and even to some point dignity. But, the truth is... in our military today, most value sex, alcohol, money, and self gratification more that honor, and rarely do they understand the difference.
For a man who loves honor, but lacks it in himself to show that he has anymore; the military can be a harsh and dreadful place to go to rebuild himself, and his integrity. When every corner you turn towards in search of yourself, you see demons and pain rather than light and truth... it is near impossible for a man to regain his stature there. The heart of an honest and honorable man can be turned cold in a place such as that. It would take more than the man himself to correct himself, and reestablish himself on the correct path.
To those who seek to be honorable, and who wish to serve others and God with their lives, the military is not the best course in which to set your life in. Instead, turn your eyes to God, ask for his guidance in your quest for honor. The US military is no longer what it once was. Take it from a man who is in the youngest of the forces, who on a daily basis sees the corruption in the eyes of members from all branches. It is enough to bring a man to tears to see that he made the wrong choice for his life, and to see the consequences of his actions. Don't get me wrong, this is a great life for those of you who desire to have a stable job, no worries, and the respect of others. The time away from home is tough, but only a matter of time. The pains of war, are for those who have done wrong, and know not that God is in control, and that it was in the service of their nation, and their for in the politicians hands.
But if you desire honor, to be honorable, to live an honorable life, then I suggest that you either keep your head high, and not befriend 99% of the men in this field, or serve in the name of honor in a different way. Or you may find yourself like me, in ripping your heart and soul out because you have no one to talk to to, no one who believes in the honor you do, no one to share your cause with.....no one who respects the man you are trying to become to make up for the man you have been. My advice to my brothers and sisters, don't make my mistakes.....and stay proud of who you are. If you can do that and be in the military, I applause you, and knee my knees before you.